The Designers Indecision, My story

“If you enjoy your job, you’ll never have to work a day in your life.” I’ve heard this said many times throughout my life so far. To simply enjoy what you do for a living is the ultimate dream. To work at something, and then get paid cash for it. Even when I was a kid, I knew I wanted to have something like this. However, I never could figure out what that job could be.

You might remember in elementary school people asking what you wanted to be when you grow up. The typical response might be a fireman, astronaut, or maybe the president, but for me this question always stumped me. Fast forward to High school the question shifted from what you wanted, to what are you going to do. Then the pressure starts to hit. What am I going to do for the rest of my life? How am I going to retire? What will make me happy? These were the questions that they pressured us to answer. To simply give an answer, I said I wanted to work on websites.

I grew up in a very tech focused family. My father is a user experience designer, and had worked a bit in development as well. I did also enjoy working around computers as well. Me and my brother had just recently built our first computer. So this decision to work on websites wasn’t too outlandish. After this somewhat half-hearted decision, I started to look for ways to push myself in this direction. I took the only computer science related class in my high school, ‘Intro to computer technology’. There I had my first exposure to development, where we built simple websites and developed simple games using JavaScript. I had a blast.

In college I took their only web related degree available. A two year associates degree in web design. It was here that I took a turn towards designing rather than developing. I learned basic design principles, and had learned some designing tools. After graduating and working a bit in the design world, things became stagnant. Things weren’t that fun, and I was having a crisis of what I wanted to be.

This was the problem, I wasn’t enjoying designing things. I never hated it, more that it was getting boring. I kept thinking back to that quote, about enjoying your job. I knew I had to make a change. I looked at different careers, thinking that manual labor may be for me. I thought about becoming a mechanic working on cars, or becoming an electrician. These are things that still interest me, so making that switch was tempting. Then I worked at a manufacturing place, where I had a hard time enjoying anything at that time.

After some time passing I realized that the fun I had was in that class in high school developing. I then turned my focus to learning to become a Jr. developer through Udemy. Just from the few months of learning I was able to find a bit of joy, and decided that this was what I wanted to do. Udemy wasn’t enough for me, and I wanted something more. Eventually I was recommended to look at Flatiron school to become a software engineer. There I was introduced to a great community of developers, and taught the value of having a supportive community to help me along the way. Attending this course solidified my love of programming and reassured that this was my calling.

I took a roundabout way on my journey to becoming a developer. So far I focused on what I wanted, and what I enjoy. I believe that this should be everyone’s goal, to find their own happiness. Although, life’s circumstances can make this difficult and you will most likely face challenges in any career path you choose. For me it was indecision, but for others could be something entirely different. What I want you to take away from this blog is to value your own happiness as you go through life. Whether that’s happiness from work or from your personal life. Make it worth it for yourself. Don’t be afraid to make a change in your career if it means a better life.

Software Engineering student at Flatiron School